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Not a good day to die

I’ll never forget the odor filling my nostrils as I opened my eyes to fuzzy darkness….that distinct chemical carpet smell coupled with the latest fruity deodorizer.

What happened?

Oh, right. I spent the weekend in the hospital from a head on collision that was my fault.

I picked myself up from the floor of my second story bedroom. Intense and crippling pain in my side. A call to a friend, a trip to the hospital where I was supposed to get surgery on my hand that was broken this very day.

I stumble in. I’m in a bed as I try to explain between piercing breathes why I’m there and what is happening.

I’m bleeding internally. I can hardly breath.

Ambulance ride to the trauma unit at the downtown hospital. As if shit weren’t real enough already.

Parents were called, first time they even saw me since the accident 4 days ago. They didn’t even know.

It’d be so easy to disappear sometimes. Right place, right time.

Punctured liver that was missed, bleeding out for days. The Dr claimed I was hours within dying.

Is that what dying feels like?

They said it was. Hours.

Was that 120 minutes? Or more?

What if we only had the next 120 minutes?

Would it be a good day to try?

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Human Beings: Creating Problems Where There Are None 

Is it that need for drama? The importance we feel when we’re solving crazy issues? The satisfaction in seeing the back end of resolution?

Maybe all of these things factor into why we, as human beings, find the need to create problems where there don’t need to be.

Social media. We could say that there are problems that have arisen from this. Behaviorial disorders being at the top of the list. * We definitely created that. Not with the intention of causing drama or more racism, but that is the underlying effect.

Bathroom gender segregation. This isn’t the first time we as humans have had issues with our defecation locations. The bathroom situation should have always been unisex for public places. Set up for whomever chooses to use it. Individual spaces for everyone. Making them gender specific in the first place seems to be another case of making a problem where there wasn’t one.

General butthurt. Yes, this is a useable grammatical phrase now. Communication has turned into a process that receives negative connotations. We are supposed to mind our own business and respect the individuality of others…but how are we supposed to learn unless we respectfully ask questions?

Take criticism!! Not everyone will like you or your thoughts and not everyone has to. Sensitivity to a degree is great if we’re applying it to the correct situation.

If we make it a point to be more aware each day, I’m almost certain that communication would open back up and we’d feel closer to our friends and family again.

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Sleep Bio for Overachievers💤

I require much less sleep to function at the optimal level than most. 6-7 is great. More than 7 is way too much & I’ll feel lethargic and groggy.

Sleep is hard and solid for the first 2-3 hours, I fall asleep quickly. But during the last 2 hours of the nights sleep, I can awaken easily. Then it’s difficult to return to sleep. I wake up in the morning with the most energy of the day. Within 5 minutes of opening my eyes, I’m ready to go. Think, plan, work out, clean. By 3:30, my energy plateaus and then it’s time to begin winding down for evening.

It’s 8:10 pm now, dark…I’m craving sweets and about ready to get into super chill mode.

Have a great night everyone!!

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Busy 🐝🐝

Writing has been unfortunately in a far of corner of my mind side business has picked up.

As with any artistic expression, it must come from within or its meaningless and boring. There’s been a lot going on and I’ve been jotting down snippets of topics to discuss. Points I’m pretty determined to make. Questions I have that I want perspective on.

Keep it to snippets and perhaps the frequency would follow…

Until later…

-your friendly neighborhood spiderchik

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The Detail Devil

I notice all of them.

Patterns. In behaviors, in clouds, in the mind.

Being able to not only notice the tiny details of something, but to categorize those details into smaller groups helps a person become aware.

Its about being present in the moment. Experience the holding on of time. Savoring it. Thinking of it while it’s happening so hard that you can taste it. I recall moments passing me by and wondering what I could do to make the amazing ones last longer.

The way I learned to capture moments by noticing details was aided through meditation. Although I could stand to keep a routine practice, the senses that were once fine tuned during mediating remain as such.

Being able to put down a phone, get away from your day and spend time settling your head does wonders. As well as leaving you with lasting positive effects.

Be well and happy weekend!


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Purrmaids, Mercats & Originality in the Tech Age

It’s so #simple to #share ideas now. Within the simplicity of this action lies a great amount of turmoil. 

The creative process is just that. A creative. Process. It evolves and it varies. From person to person. From instance to instance. It’s our own thing. Sometimes we make it up and have excellent results.

Now if we #share every aspect of our creative process by live video or by detailed photographic instruction, we are training someone else how to do it. Essentially…giving away our secrets and processes that make us able to create these stand out, truly original pieces. 

As an artist, I feel it is vital to house within ourselves a bit of mystery in the public eye. It gives an edge and creates an excellent platform from which to market.

Don’t share everything. Don’t tell everyone your processes and the secrets that make your work unique. 

Its a struggle to find something that hasn’t been done before because we spend so much time looking at other people’s work. Comparing. Attempting to use it as inspiration, but there’s a fine line between inspiration and an elaborate copy. Where do you draw the line?

Here’s my #1 idea for inspiration: Get off social media for 2 full weeks, minimum. Completely off. No posting, no trolling. 

Instead: Write. Sketch. Draw. Go for walks and take your pad with you. Draw everything you see…then draw mashups of what you see. Allow yourself to dive, I mean REALLY GTF IN your own mind. Try new mediums. Paint, markers, pencils, chalk. Strive for something that’s never been done. Something you’ve never seen.

If you’ve fine this and are still dry on crearivity: Visit my friend and fellow artist Noah Scalin’s Creative Sprint site and buy his book. It will definitely get you going, as it did me. 

Find yourself….get lost there. It will surprise you what treasures you find buried beneath the rubble of social media and judgement! 

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Combining Sea and Space

Happy Tuesday! 

Moving to the coast coupled with a plethora of Alien and Star Trek movies has given me ideas about space tentacles on shells. In the link is one of the pendants listed on Etsy I had fun creating with a mini key.

It’s not my favorite though…pictured here in this post is the purple and teal one I made that I’m I love with and will likely keep!

Check out this item in my Etsy shop